Fingerprints etc...

Well, since Friday, we've had our first visit from our social worker (which is the only one we'll need, we found out, since we've already done a home study with them) , gotten fingerprinted and sent in our prints to the Clerk of the Court.
Which, in itself, isn't a HUGE deal, but let me explain...
Since this whole adoption "started", I've been kind of in the clouds about it. It was not "planned" and kind of just came about as a big surprise. So, when people have asked me about it for the past month or so, I don't even feel like I'm talking about myself. I feel like I'm talking about someone else. I guess I just really haven't gotten used to the idea that we're doing this again yet.
So, to be totally honest, I haven't really been that motivated with all the paperwork that goes with adopting.
With Mia, I was 100% ON IT and did everything that I could to speed it up. I almost felt desperate to bring her home...
But this time, I don't feel that same sense of urgency for some reason and it's confused me a bit. I've had moments where I've wondered if this child is really for us? Is this actually supposed to happen and is he actually supposed to be our son? Was I wrong when I saw his picture for the first time and had that "feeling"? Or, is it just going to take some time to get used to it all?
It was hard trying to sort it all out and I still feel like I'm continuing to do that.
BUT, with all of my lack of motivation and being slow about getting everything done, this adoption has continued to move forward and it's starting to show me that maybe this IS meant to happen.
Before I even sent in our application to Three Angels or Oasis (our home study agency), our social worker called us to set up an appointment. THEN, she called to reschedule it for a week sooner. This, without any effort on my part. I didn't even have the paperwork ready for her! But, she said just to send it in when I do.
So, we had our first visit with her and I really had NOTHING to do with it! It went really well and was really just a formality, since we've had many visits with them for Mia in the past.
I did call a fingerprinting person to set up a time for her to come out and do our prints and we had an appt. scheduled for tomorrow at 2pm.
Well, she called me this morning to confirm because she hadn't written down our appt. day or time so I told her Tuesday at 2pm.
Well, at 2:30pm TODAY, our doorbell rings and it's HER! She got it wrong and thought it was today...and if she had arrived 15 minutes later, we wouldn't have been home, we would've been picking up Mia from school. AND, she told us she had forgotten her cell phone at home, so she wouldn't have been able to call us!
So, hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..............perfect timing/coincidence?????? I think not.....
So, I have a feeling that God is trying to reassure me that indeed, this is meant to be and that I should start to get motivated and get my butt in gear with all this paperwork so we can get our boy home! He knows my innermost feelings and thoughts, even when I can't quite express them or even understand them myself and I feel like He knows what I need right now and is supplying that for me. Which, is what He's good at, right?
So, here we go! I'll keep going if He does....(and we all know that He never gives up or stops helping us....) So, we're in for a ride...and I think, slowly, I'm getting more prepared for it.
Eric and Helayna are going to Haiti to Three Angels orphanage in November with our church , so we get to go shopping and send some stuff with for Sebastian! I'm excited and think that this will help me to feel more connected to him....(shopping has that effect on me!!!)


That's what's going on with us....
We would appreciate your continued prayers....for us, our paperwork and also, for Sebastian.
Love,
Michele

Update

Well,I thought I should probably write, since it's been a month since we "announced" our plans (or better, God's plans) to adopt our little baby boy.
Here's what we've accomplished so far:
-mailed our "app for certification to adopt" to County Court
-gotten all our reference letters and finished our application for Three Angels, we just need to send it in.
-mailed in our CPS form
-gotten our medical forms done
-have our first "home visit" scheduled with our homestudy agency

And that's about it...we still have ALOT to do and we need to get started on it all....
There's just been a lot going on here at our house and now sickness has hit! So, next week will be the week to get some of it done!
It's funny, because we've been through this once before and you would think I would know what to do, but for some reason, I'm overwhelmed this time.
Maybe it's because it wasn't my "plan" so I really had no time to get used to the idea or wrap my brain around all I needed to do.
Or maybe it's because last time, I went through an agency that had a wonderful adoption coordinator who basically held my hand through it all and told me, step by step, what I needed to do and HOW I needed to do it. (not that 3A isn't wonderful, it's just not an agency)
Now, I just have all these lists....and if you know me, I actually like lists....but these are LONG lists and they are all different and I don't know where to start.
I guess I don't know who to ask, either.
So, I'm just trying not to freak out about it, and stay calm and do it one step at a time. I just hope I'm doing the steps in the right order....
I know that we need certain things done by the time Eric goes to Haiti in November, so he can schedule certain appointments while he's there, but I don't know which things these are!
I'm just confused....can you tell?????
Other than that, we're all doing great here! (haha)
I have gotten more pics of SP (that's my nickname for him lately) and they are SO cute!!! (thanks, Colleen!!!) If anyone has anymore, could you please send them to me? I'm making an album...
Well, I better go...I have a sick little munchkin with a temp of 105 that I need to take care of. Gosh, how am I going to do it with 3 kids??? Crazy, to think of....but I know we can do it.
Please pray for us (me, especially..while I'm doing the paperwork)....
and for little Sebastian....I can't believe that Eric and Helayna get to see/meet him in a month!!! I am very jealous!!!! But I've gotten many promises that video will be taken the first time they meet, so I can't wait to see that. And Eric's told me that he'll "Skype" me so I can see the 3 of them together....gosh, that almost brings me to tears just thinking about it....
And then, maybe next time, it'll be me that goes to meet my little boy for the first time....

That's it for now....hopefully next time I write in, I'll have it all done!!! (yeah, right!!haha)

xoxoxoxo
Michele